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Immaculate Capitulation

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I could linger here for hours, sinking deeper into the
busy stillness, that unwinds when I bed down
in the sweet grasses, and watch the world work.

Beetles, blossoms, birdsong.

The swollen heat of high summer has come.
It tugs, and thrums and meters out the breath of life.
I consider the sticky, happy, bleed
of pressing sunshine.

The Earth’s gentle turning yields generosity
from a relentless sun.
This critical act of immaculate capitulation
allows us to rest in darkness and gather strength to
create again.

I am feeling to find these threads,
sensitizing myself to touch the cords with confidence,
and know which action is needed.
I am thinking about how to honor the lineage of this
relationship, of knowing when enough has come. Of
knowing what to turn away from, and what to turn into.

I trust the material I am made from, yet know so little
of its working. This wisdom murmurs late at night as
the narrator of my dreams, and in the daylight hum of
the cicada.

Our distance from our native knowledge of how to be,
is perhaps the greatest consequence of our
advancement. I have seen nothing else in nature that
extrapolates its expectations beyond the boundaries of
sensation.

The Offering

Snowdrops, crocuses, daffodils

The snowdrops bow their delicate, white heads, and shine their light back to the earth.
The first offering of spring is to the source.
The crocuses salute the sun, all eagerness and stretching, in noble robes of purple and gold.
The second offering of spring is to the source.
The daffodils are standing now, but still tightly bound. When they open, they will gaze out upon the land.
The third offering of spring is to the world.

Sweet Weeping

For Keri

Maple branch leaking sap

One hundred yards back, looking towards the clearing,
I see the drops gleaming. Shining all the way down.

It is dry.
My coat rubs electricity out of the air
and sends it snapping out my fingertips.
I am a good and unhappy conduit.

Closer, I hear the tap of liquid on leaves, slow and irregular.
I break a swelling drop across my finger.
I taste wood, dry air, and faint, sweet maple.
I taste my childhood.

Dark branches leak the surging sweetness. Climbing and awake,
in a race of a different pace,
spilling now in the slow tip of craftsmanship.

It is in the jointed places, that life runs out.
In the broken places, life pools. The bark shines,
the wound glistens, calling attention to the bounty that springs from there.

Little Fish

I wish, I wish.
I wish you were a fish
in a bowl on my desk
along with the the rest
of the notes and bits
from the life that I live.

I miss, I miss, I miss you so much
miss all the untouched
kisses and hugs.
Miss all of the drinks
and all of the winks,
my sweet little fish
who doesn’t exist.

Hymn of the Pussy Willow

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In early spring, they swell into the promise. They dress for the brutality of these first days, determined harbingers of life. It’s time, they say. It is time to begin work on the blossom. What can you do when your own voice calls, but answer? Even if it means waking in the dark, and rising to practice existence when it’s inhospitable. It is a trudging victory, these early steps. The flowers wait beneath the snow, feeling smug and sensible.

But don’t you notice the danger of your luscious rush, think the pussy willows. You are lovely, yes, but so vulnerable. The world is full of those who want to clutch you in bunches, and be everything they cannot say. It is a heavy burden to speak the words of another; the lonely cold is not so bad.

They crack their shells and wiggle from their chinchilla husks. These buds, new buds, tell an ancient story, again. The current sentinels of their lineage, they sing their verse in a shudder that lasts for centuries. They etch their line in the circle that builds at once in every direction. A slow ripple that quietly chants, There was drought, and I existed. There was abundance, and I existed. If I am here, I will exist. Even flora, it seems, wants a memory.

It is a simple epic. A memoir of bearing witness to the unfolding of petals on a blossom.

Winter Tomatoes

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What do you do with a winter tomato? Roast it with salt and pepper, oil, and good vinegar. Reduce and augment it, to turn it more into itself.  

I push my finger through the tender wall, and hollow out the cavities. Carefully slip my finger between the ribs, feeling for the seedy meat. Hook. Pull. Flick. Wet flesh in a surgeon’s tray. Jelly coddled seeds seep towards the drain. Humiliated by their exile, angry at their abortion. Suspended in the protection that bears them away, they glare we are the essence, how could you? 

In the heat of the oven, the shells sigh, yes, this is what I am. They relax their bodies, cell by cell, with each scorching breath.

Eating Oranges in the Sun

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The lamps above me swing in the breeze,
creaking, like dreams at the gallows.
We came here to live, the willing,
and the unwilling.
Sometimes, hating God is all we need
to know that He exists.
Sometimes, belief emerges from everything it isn’t.
If you paint everything that is not the chair,
you still end up with a picture of a chair.
A cameo. A relief.
I eat oranges in the sun,
while the breeze rolls my edges
in and out
of the clear light.