Monthly Archives: May 2013

Tuckin

Mommy?
Yes.
Will you lay with me for a couple hours?
Yes, I’ll lay with you for a little bit.
Mom?
What.
Mum?
Yes darling.
Mum, can we play the whisper game?
Yes.
I’m going to whisper the name of a sea monster, and then you say it back to me.
Ok.
But we have to talk quieter.
Ok.
Mum….
He speaks softly into my cheek. I shift my head so my ear is in front of his mouth.
What?
Mummy, I think you are a great mom.
You think I am a great mom?
Yes.
Oh. Thank you honey. Do you know what? I think you are a great son.
Ok. Mom? Do you know manta rays are always beautiful?
Do I know manta rays are always beautiful. Yes. I do know that. I’m glad you know that too.
Why?
Because it means you are paying attention.
Mom?
Yes angel face?
He’s quiet for a while.
Mom? Do you know that red angels and blue angles are different?
Of course.
Why?
Because know two angels are the same. What makes them different?
Well, red angels have blasters, and blue angels have light sabers.
Oh really?
Yes.
The red angels are the bad guys, and the blue angles are the good guys.
Yes. There are all kinds of angles. Thank goodness.
Yeah.
We lay in the dark. I have cold pasta on the stove. Tomatoes and mint in a bowl. Cheese on the counter. Brendan is in the shower. It’s 9:15. He gently pythons his arms around my neck.
Good night darling.
Staywithme.
Good night sweetness.
He squeezes.
I love you darling – Now let go of my neck!
I feel him tense, unsure.
I smile my cheek into his. He laughs. I laugh. He laughs for real.
Say it again!
I love you darling – Now let go of my neck!
We laugh.
Good night darling.
I push away. His arms fall away.